Emotionless
I had a similar post last week i think. But i felt i should touch on it again, just for my own self gratification. Don't think i'm just using this blog as a personal journal to talk about random bullshit I experience, but I'm supposed to be expressing myself to my fans so here I am.
For almost a year i had been professing to be 'Emotionlless' or Emotionally Numb to everything outside of music. I beleived with my heart of hearts that that was true and still kinda do; but being out of your element can do things to you. You start to acknowledge the minor details in your life that didnt matter back home where you were too preoccupied with the enchantment of what you were doing. You to remember what its like to remember things...painful things, nostalgic things, sentimental things....just things that tended to escape your radar while you were on that 'daily grind'.
That's when ypu realise that you not Emotionless, in fact far from it. You simply mastered a way to preoccupy with other things so that you don't have to concentrate on the things you supposedly have no control over; the things that supposedly make you weak in your own eyes.
And it was easy to do so because you were on that 'daily grind'. Furthermore, you were doing something that you trully loved so ignored everything that didnt match that happiness you felt when doing what you love.
But when you're out of your element, that sheild you made for yourself is worth nothing. You have to start over with the same feelings you tried to hide for so ;long.
Maybe, just maybe, it might be better for me to confront certain things in my head. Just maybe.
But who really knows
It's always so much easier to look through a window than a mirror
till next time ppl
.....In the context of eternity, It doesn't matter....
One
For almost a year i had been professing to be 'Emotionlless' or Emotionally Numb to everything outside of music. I beleived with my heart of hearts that that was true and still kinda do; but being out of your element can do things to you. You start to acknowledge the minor details in your life that didnt matter back home where you were too preoccupied with the enchantment of what you were doing. You to remember what its like to remember things...painful things, nostalgic things, sentimental things....just things that tended to escape your radar while you were on that 'daily grind'.
That's when ypu realise that you not Emotionless, in fact far from it. You simply mastered a way to preoccupy with other things so that you don't have to concentrate on the things you supposedly have no control over; the things that supposedly make you weak in your own eyes.
And it was easy to do so because you were on that 'daily grind'. Furthermore, you were doing something that you trully loved so ignored everything that didnt match that happiness you felt when doing what you love.
But when you're out of your element, that sheild you made for yourself is worth nothing. You have to start over with the same feelings you tried to hide for so ;long.
Maybe, just maybe, it might be better for me to confront certain things in my head. Just maybe.
But who really knows
It's always so much easier to look through a window than a mirror
till next time ppl
.....In the context of eternity, It doesn't matter....
One
posted by House of Wax at
1:10 PM
1 Comments:
never knew u felt that way so it comes as quite the shocker...i believe that secrecy is an artform; one which makes others very curious and creates suspense. the suspense that u leave and have left fans like myself with is what draws us to u and enables us to establish a relationship with u ...through ur music. it's clear, extremely obvious that u're not emotionless, (anyone who's downladed ur mixtape wud kno that)...sum ppl may agree to u being emotionless but however, ....not showing emotion may very well be your biggest emotion yet....keep being u shuga....as usual.
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