Can I Live

On this day, my 21st birthday, I find myself asking so many questions. In the midst of so many accomplishments, i find myself wondering if these have been outweighed by my mistakes and regrets.
In the blink of an eye, in the process of 'living' you may end up killing yourself without even realizing it.
In the process of 'living', everything you've worked for, everything that has brought you joy, satisfaction or even sanity could be lost.
Everything means nothing....
Now when this happens, when this is your life, are you really living?
Are you really still alive?
Is it worth life?
It may be or it may not be. One thing still remains though...Life Goes On...
Whether you like it or not, it goes on.
You must continue to exist.
The hardest part of it all is maintaining the facade of life while feeling dead inside. Smiling while moments away from tears.
Is this really life?
Should you continue to exist?
Are you really living when already dead inside?
On this day, My 21st birthday, These are the questions i am faced with. In the midst of all my accomplishments, The mixtape, the video, the single, the Ra position, the fame, the women, my family, my friends, my fans, the 'happiness', the life....i find myself asking...
is This Life?

...Can I Live...